So I have decided to start my own blog. A blog about what goes on day to day in the life of Caitlin, and let me tell you, its not interesting. Not one bit. But its about how I feel, how I'm coping with my depression, what I think, what I do, about my daughter, my family, everything. Every detail of me basically. Well where do I start? its currently 02:07am on the 15th April 2018 and I am wide awake, watching my 9 week old baby girl in her swing chair. Waiting for her to realise that she isn't in my arms and to start screaming. This is a typical night for us. Shes managed to have a few naps but each nap lasts less than 30 minutes and it ends in a crying match because shes realised I am not holding her or she's not by my side as shes in her moses basket. Today has been a bad day. A very bad day. Ive managed to argue with my partner multiple times. Over nothing and pathetic things as well but things get so heated it just ends in disaster. I try to tell him how I feel but I f...